Thursday, December 22, 2011

Apple of my EYES....

Langston Hughes'
Mother to Son


Well, son, I'll tell you:
Life for me ain't been no crystal stair.
It's had tacks in it,
And splinters,
And boards torn up,
And places with no carpet on the floor --
Bare.
But all the time
I'se been a-climbin' on,
And reachin' landin's,
And turnin' corners,
And sometimes goin' in the dark
Where there ain't been no light.
So boy, don't you turn back.
Don't you set down on the steps
'Cause you finds it's kinder hard.
Don't you fall now --
For I'se still goin', honey,
I'se still climbin',
And life for me ain't been no crystal stair.

I Love both of you,Rayyan n Rayhan...Mummy can't imagine living this life without you both! muahsss

Demam OR ngeeee




OR????

Original Recipe??

NOOOO

it's

Ombak Rindu lorrr

at first i was like..ape la yg sspecial sgt pasal dis film,everyone sebokk nk nengok..ajak enche suami xnak g, ajak kwn2 sume g ngn partner *xkan aku nk ngekor* haha...

pikir duk pk..pegila sorang! nak jugak tgok *sebenarnye heboh nk tgok aaron aziz* kehkehhh..

after sending my babies to schools, i headed to jusco, had bfast at stabucks;




here we go;















after a long burppp, then i'm ready for a show...xtaula tiket ade g ke x..gamble jela...

smpai2 je,tggal satu je seat*mmg rezeki ai la nmpaknye,alhmdulillah * hehee

memula je da sedih,sudahnye sampai abis tisu dua peket..x malu sungguh! (sib baik sorang)haha


kuar je cinema,ade a group of ppl called me; "teacheerrrrrr"'! alamakkk kantoii sudaa..mate bengkak nangis..jiwang gler teacher nye..*lari tutup muka*








|| Old skool boyband ||


i was at jusco when i found this while strolling down at the Popular bookstore:





huhuuuuu...it was a long time ago (when i was in uitm did my diploma at that time) when i was sooo into those boy bands..haha *malu tutup muka*


ni pun kira kes berkira2 *nak beli ke xnak* hahahha..tapi last2 i grabbed it smbil sorok2 nk bayar..apa daaaa... jiwang seh!!! hahahaha

Sunday, October 9, 2011

:: mommy's dobot ::





this is my current EBM stock for enche rayhan..dah semakin berkurang ni...kena gigih menambah balik ni..heheeeee


this is my 3 months and a half munchkin little button,rayhan rizqie a.k.a adik rayhan :) he's adorable, cheerful and superactive little baby at his age..he's now would love to be entertained all the time whenever he's awake...* kalo xde org layan,confirm nangis x hengat punye * tehehe

whenever people asked me, adik minum susu ape? i said, mummy die punye susu... tehehe..his abah plak answered; adik susu cap gantung,jimatttt duit abah! hehehe...

to be honest,there's a different btw a bf baby and fm baby...rayyan was not a fully bf baby,but rayhan do...:) alhamdulillah, he's getting to be 4 mths old dis month, and he's still under fully bf :) jimat duit,jimat masa,n most important,full of nutrition, and hv a very good immunization for babies :) as a result, so far, rayhan mmg x penah kena demam lagi, alhamdulillahhhh *mintak jauhkan *..compared to rayyan mase dulu yg x fully bf, slalu demam,cirit birit n x sihat...

at this point, now, i truly believe that the best milk in the world is not the most expensive milk, but , it comes from mummy's milk :)


Wednesday, September 7, 2011

::Nursery or Nanny?? ::

big problem,masaaalaahh!!! tetibe je nanny rayyan taknak jage si adik rayhan, she said she oredi have two babies,two toddlers...lorrr..cakap kat saye last minute,mane la saye nak carik nanny kejap2 ni....ade jugak kwn2 suggested me a few taska or nurseries, but my mom and dad (their gpapa n gmama la) x bape nak setuju..they said, kecik lagila, byk kes menakutkan la, ade ramai baby sgt la, mcm2 lagila...jadi..one day left...mane la nak carik nanny rayhan ni... :( kesian anak sorg ni...dari dlm perut g,mcm2 dugaan die, now when he came to the real world, pun byk dugaan kan,syg? takpe adik, mummy knows,everything happens for a reason...:)

after considering a few factors, there are a few pro and cons sending our baby to the nursery and nanny as well

Nursery:

pro: flexibility of time--kalo lewat tambah bayarannye buk...
anak2 dpt ramai kawan-learn n play
cons: ramai sgt,baby takut terlepas pandang
ramai sgt,byk jugak la wabak2 nye...mcm2 penyakit le ade
mcm2 bnde anak2 blajar ckp nnt..tergezut mak bapaknye


Nanny:

pro: sket je budak2 yg dijage,kdg2 anak kite sorang je...
murah sket dari taska,harga bole nego la..hee
dpt monitor n tgok macamna die jage...
cons: time--yg ini susah sket..kdg2 anta kat org, die ade hal la, nak g sepital la, nk g pasar la etc...
makanan kena prepare seniri la slalunye....

ermm..itulah antaranya...the list go on....considering on the other hand, is maid! but my family said noo..alahaii...where to send this little one? monday is coming and i'm still searching....

:: switching the code ::

its only 3 days left before i go back to work..err...yea, back to work,means back to school,back to school, equal to= time management..nah, now i have these two boys to manage, from morning till late evening untill their abah come back from work...everything will be under my responsibilty alone, beginning next monday. i've to switch my mode, to working mode, reschedule my timetable, from preparing their bags(two bags now)huhu..here the list goes:

My 3 months schedule (holiday mode)

:650am- subh prayer
-prepare the breakfast
-Stocking BM(coz rayhan still on fully bf)
:8ooam -surf the net
-mandikan the boys,n feed them
:11am -kemas umah etc..
-prepare the lunch
:1pm- leisure time with the boys...smpai abah diorg balik..huhu


now; there'll be no more leisure..nah,my time will like this;

a night before working day:

:10 pm- prepare the bags;

abg rayyan's bag: diapers,clothes,FM,bottles,toiletteries die...(which is easier)

adik rayhan's bag: diapers,morning clothes,evening clothes ,toiletteries,minyak2an bayi, EBM( adik is still on fully bf,so i've to remind myself to put 4 bottles of 5oz BM early in the morning),warmer,bottles,soother(which is more complicated aite??) huhuu

:11pm iron my clothes n hubby's for tomorrow

:12am: bedtime :)

:530am- bangunnnn!!!! mandi n subh prayer

:600am- prepare rayyan's food for d day: bfast,lunch,snacks.
-prepare adik's EBM
-prepare our bfast
:645- ready to go...the boys will be sent by their abah :)

i will be at skool, and have to fetch them by 5pm!! (errr..lewatnye awak balik? cikgu ke???) YEEE!!! cikgu skolah saye plg awal dtg,dan plg lewat balik, coz gaji kitorg 10k!! (erghh) penat tau x...:(

nah..that's why i said i've to rescheduled my time,switch on my working mode! bluesss oh bluessss..malas!!
:

mommy's dilemma


i'm confused,in dilemma, in order to expand my career,i've to sacrifice my quality time..but if i would like to keep that quality time,i've to bear the pain, to stay with the annoying people,to be a dumb and look so dumb, nothing nodding my head all the time....haishh...

but...if i choose to be on my dream path, i've to be strong and tough,i've to sacrifice my time with the boys,i've to stay awake, and be energetic to finish up my task as a mother,a wife, and a career woman......

these eyes are tired..sore and red...i need a deep rest,thank you.......

|| Mr Apad Junior II ||



its been a year,since the last time i wrote here...ouhh lamenye,kalo umah da bersawang2 da tggal lame cenggitu,siap ade sarang tikus lagi hik hikk...i'm now a mother of two, oh ya ...a few days after my last post i had delivered a beautiful baby boy, weighing 3.45 kg, through cesarean section, again.yes,again.this is my 2nd time, and i had d d same experience ,exactly the same 2 years back, when i delivered rayyan...

i was admitted twice for this 2nd pregnancy...first time was on 13th june 2011,due to the baby's breech positoning,and the doctor decided to undergo the c sect on me the next day, which is 14th june...but miracle happened, and he suddenly turned back to the normal position,which is cephalic, and it did,yes,raise my spirit and hope to deliver him through VBAC--- yerp,its a shortform of normal birth after csect...yeah, to be honest, sejujur2nyeee, of course i put a very high hope for this 2nd pregnancy, to keep up a good health, and maintaing the good eating habit, and for sure to deliver him through normal way..but who am i to say this and that?? Allah knows best, and when He says this,it will not turn out the other way around..and yerp, i have to accept the fact that i can't deliver him throughnormal way..why???let me story mory the morning glory to u okeh?

this 2nd pregnancy really test my patience, it does... he been overdued ...the 'flight'had been delayed for 10 days..and ergghhh...u know how does it feels when u have to wait and wait??? its like waiting is a torture to me!! i'd been warded on the 6th day after due (which is 26th june) and after considering my condition, and the baby's slow progress,the O & G team decided to induced me, this time they didnt use pills induction(like i had when i delivered rayyan bfore)---sakit nak ma****!!!! this time they used 'balloon'---does it sound funny?? ---hello,its not hokey! its not funny at all..and its painful as well..its like u r having a pin in ur ass!!! ouwchh!!! tapi kan, luckily i had been accompanied by my mr right,encik suami yg sentiasa ade di sisi--eceh! i was lucky because, for both sons(alamak,terbgtau lak) encik suami ade dlm labour room...

i was sent to the labour room, after subh prayer..i managed to hd my last prayer(sobs..mcm nak mati rase...yela, mane tau x pjg umur kan...:() a few minutes after i done, i feel a little fluid red liquid running down my limbs...and yeah,i'm bleeding and it was so painful,actually dis contraction since 12am midnite lagi..mmg sakit x hengat..tak dapat tido langsung,pegang2 besi katil lagi..tp nurses suh bertahan sbb blum kuar darah or air ketuban...haiyoohhh...it was 7 am, n one lady doctor came n check my path way, n she said, it's 4, suddenly die called the nurse...óne wheelchair,patient no 8, 4 cm, in labour'' wahhh..akhirnyee.kate ku dlm atii..walaupun sgt2 saket*hingga menggigit jari* tapi hati ni gumbira krn path da bukak, n x lame g bole jumpe my new baby!

i was wheeled to the LR, n a few minutes later my hubby came inside, to calm me down..two lady doctors came n broke the amniotic fluids( n it feels like he**) rase nk sepak je doctor ni! huhuu...they said, byk2 doa n tawakal insyaAllah by 12 bole bukak full...

tick tock tick tock..its near 12 and didnt realised at all..maybe because it was too painful(contraction,no gap in between),even my hubby da habis modal bercerita, siap buat lawak tahap maharaja lawak,tapi x jalan gak..huhu..by 12 sharp, the O n G team came in n checked the
path again...dup dap dup dap..whaaaaattt??? 4 cm lagikk???? nahhh, now i started to feel down, and sad, but hubby was there to cheer me up...:) the doctor then came again by 4 pm, n as expected , it still 4 cm!!! he said, the hope was only 5 % left..only miracle could save me....but maybe it's been written, by 7pm, when it was still 4cm, i was wheeled to the OT (operation theatre) for the cesarean section...deep down inside, i feel so disappointed, but the O n G team at HTJ did a good job! they supported me, cheer me up, n said this is not the end of the world..but bear in mind, i have two more chances only..i will only have four kids, that's final :( but then, still, praises to Allah, at least ade anak kan...:)

uwaaaaa uwaaaaa....by 7.21 pm, Muhammad Rayhan Rizqie was born . he was safely delivered tru c section,and he was so beautiful..i could listened to his voice , crying loudly, maybe it was too cold in the OT...i had an experience before(when i delivered rayyan) so, i didnt have too much anxiety being in the OT..in fact, i feel so relief when the spinal back jab works...all the contraction pains went away...waaahhh....hilang sumee.....after 2 hours, i was sent back the my room and there the pain came...nah, the knife cut you 'feel!! sedap sgguh rasenye,huhu...the untold part about csct is when u lost the numb feel, and it was sooo painful to stand, to sit and to breastfeed ur baby..but luckily, i had experience before, n it was not so hard this time..its all about mind setting..i set my mind to be strong and tough, because i'm a mommy of two now! huhu....

rayhan is now two months and a half now, and my 3 months holiday hv come to the end..back to reality, bye bye boys..no more breakfast with mummy, no more wake up late with the boys, and sleep late at night...sobss....mummy loves both of u, rayyan n rayhan, and their abah too!!!!

Thursday, June 23, 2011

waiting for his arrival...

its been a very long time since i updated my blog here..it was about 9 months back..when i was about a few weeks preggy...now i'm still pregnant, yeah, still!!! you must be wondering why right....it is absolutely the same same baby that i carried the last time i posted my blog, yerp, i'm officially in my 40 weeks, and 2 days !! yep, its an overdue pregnancy already...

my oh my...everything has been prepared nicely for this second hero of mine...from diapers to blanket, from mittens and booties, to his comfy cot..everything has been prepared completely...not 100% new, but i guess 80% new...the rest were belong to his abang,rayyan.. :)

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Apple of my EYES....

Posted by Mashy a.k.a Mummyrayyan at 7:07 PM 0 comments

Langston Hughes'
Mother to Son


Well, son, I'll tell you:
Life for me ain't been no crystal stair.
It's had tacks in it,
And splinters,
And boards torn up,
And places with no carpet on the floor --
Bare.
But all the time
I'se been a-climbin' on,
And reachin' landin's,
And turnin' corners,
And sometimes goin' in the dark
Where there ain't been no light.
So boy, don't you turn back.
Don't you set down on the steps
'Cause you finds it's kinder hard.
Don't you fall now --
For I'se still goin', honey,
I'se still climbin',
And life for me ain't been no crystal stair.

I Love both of you,Rayyan n Rayhan...Mummy can't imagine living this life without you both! muahsss

Demam OR ngeeee

Posted by Mashy a.k.a Mummyrayyan at 6:36 PM 0 comments



OR????

Original Recipe??

NOOOO

it's

Ombak Rindu lorrr

at first i was like..ape la yg sspecial sgt pasal dis film,everyone sebokk nk nengok..ajak enche suami xnak g, ajak kwn2 sume g ngn partner *xkan aku nk ngekor* haha...

pikir duk pk..pegila sorang! nak jugak tgok *sebenarnye heboh nk tgok aaron aziz* kehkehhh..

after sending my babies to schools, i headed to jusco, had bfast at stabucks;




here we go;















after a long burppp, then i'm ready for a show...xtaula tiket ade g ke x..gamble jela...

smpai2 je,tggal satu je seat*mmg rezeki ai la nmpaknye,alhmdulillah * hehee

memula je da sedih,sudahnye sampai abis tisu dua peket..x malu sungguh! (sib baik sorang)haha


kuar je cinema,ade a group of ppl called me; "teacheerrrrrr"'! alamakkk kantoii sudaa..mate bengkak nangis..jiwang gler teacher nye..*lari tutup muka*








|| Old skool boyband ||

Posted by Mashy a.k.a Mummyrayyan at 12:14 AM 0 comments

i was at jusco when i found this while strolling down at the Popular bookstore:





huhuuuuu...it was a long time ago (when i was in uitm did my diploma at that time) when i was sooo into those boy bands..haha *malu tutup muka*


ni pun kira kes berkira2 *nak beli ke xnak* hahahha..tapi last2 i grabbed it smbil sorok2 nk bayar..apa daaaa... jiwang seh!!! hahahaha

Sunday, October 9, 2011

:: mommy's dobot ::

Posted by Mashy a.k.a Mummyrayyan at 8:26 PM 0 comments




this is my current EBM stock for enche rayhan..dah semakin berkurang ni...kena gigih menambah balik ni..heheeeee


this is my 3 months and a half munchkin little button,rayhan rizqie a.k.a adik rayhan :) he's adorable, cheerful and superactive little baby at his age..he's now would love to be entertained all the time whenever he's awake...* kalo xde org layan,confirm nangis x hengat punye * tehehe

whenever people asked me, adik minum susu ape? i said, mummy die punye susu... tehehe..his abah plak answered; adik susu cap gantung,jimatttt duit abah! hehehe...

to be honest,there's a different btw a bf baby and fm baby...rayyan was not a fully bf baby,but rayhan do...:) alhamdulillah, he's getting to be 4 mths old dis month, and he's still under fully bf :) jimat duit,jimat masa,n most important,full of nutrition, and hv a very good immunization for babies :) as a result, so far, rayhan mmg x penah kena demam lagi, alhamdulillahhhh *mintak jauhkan *..compared to rayyan mase dulu yg x fully bf, slalu demam,cirit birit n x sihat...

at this point, now, i truly believe that the best milk in the world is not the most expensive milk, but , it comes from mummy's milk :)


Wednesday, September 7, 2011

::Nursery or Nanny?? ::

Posted by Mashy a.k.a Mummyrayyan at 7:36 PM 0 comments
big problem,masaaalaahh!!! tetibe je nanny rayyan taknak jage si adik rayhan, she said she oredi have two babies,two toddlers...lorrr..cakap kat saye last minute,mane la saye nak carik nanny kejap2 ni....ade jugak kwn2 suggested me a few taska or nurseries, but my mom and dad (their gpapa n gmama la) x bape nak setuju..they said, kecik lagila, byk kes menakutkan la, ade ramai baby sgt la, mcm2 lagila...jadi..one day left...mane la nak carik nanny rayhan ni... :( kesian anak sorg ni...dari dlm perut g,mcm2 dugaan die, now when he came to the real world, pun byk dugaan kan,syg? takpe adik, mummy knows,everything happens for a reason...:)

after considering a few factors, there are a few pro and cons sending our baby to the nursery and nanny as well

Nursery:

pro: flexibility of time--kalo lewat tambah bayarannye buk...
anak2 dpt ramai kawan-learn n play
cons: ramai sgt,baby takut terlepas pandang
ramai sgt,byk jugak la wabak2 nye...mcm2 penyakit le ade
mcm2 bnde anak2 blajar ckp nnt..tergezut mak bapaknye


Nanny:

pro: sket je budak2 yg dijage,kdg2 anak kite sorang je...
murah sket dari taska,harga bole nego la..hee
dpt monitor n tgok macamna die jage...
cons: time--yg ini susah sket..kdg2 anta kat org, die ade hal la, nak g sepital la, nk g pasar la etc...
makanan kena prepare seniri la slalunye....

ermm..itulah antaranya...the list go on....considering on the other hand, is maid! but my family said noo..alahaii...where to send this little one? monday is coming and i'm still searching....

:: switching the code ::

Posted by Mashy a.k.a Mummyrayyan at 7:12 PM 0 comments
its only 3 days left before i go back to work..err...yea, back to work,means back to school,back to school, equal to= time management..nah, now i have these two boys to manage, from morning till late evening untill their abah come back from work...everything will be under my responsibilty alone, beginning next monday. i've to switch my mode, to working mode, reschedule my timetable, from preparing their bags(two bags now)huhu..here the list goes:

My 3 months schedule (holiday mode)

:650am- subh prayer
-prepare the breakfast
-Stocking BM(coz rayhan still on fully bf)
:8ooam -surf the net
-mandikan the boys,n feed them
:11am -kemas umah etc..
-prepare the lunch
:1pm- leisure time with the boys...smpai abah diorg balik..huhu


now; there'll be no more leisure..nah,my time will like this;

a night before working day:

:10 pm- prepare the bags;

abg rayyan's bag: diapers,clothes,FM,bottles,toiletteries die...(which is easier)

adik rayhan's bag: diapers,morning clothes,evening clothes ,toiletteries,minyak2an bayi, EBM( adik is still on fully bf,so i've to remind myself to put 4 bottles of 5oz BM early in the morning),warmer,bottles,soother(which is more complicated aite??) huhuu

:11pm iron my clothes n hubby's for tomorrow

:12am: bedtime :)

:530am- bangunnnn!!!! mandi n subh prayer

:600am- prepare rayyan's food for d day: bfast,lunch,snacks.
-prepare adik's EBM
-prepare our bfast
:645- ready to go...the boys will be sent by their abah :)

i will be at skool, and have to fetch them by 5pm!! (errr..lewatnye awak balik? cikgu ke???) YEEE!!! cikgu skolah saye plg awal dtg,dan plg lewat balik, coz gaji kitorg 10k!! (erghh) penat tau x...:(

nah..that's why i said i've to rescheduled my time,switch on my working mode! bluesss oh bluessss..malas!!
:

mommy's dilemma

Posted by Mashy a.k.a Mummyrayyan at 7:27 AM 1 comments

i'm confused,in dilemma, in order to expand my career,i've to sacrifice my quality time..but if i would like to keep that quality time,i've to bear the pain, to stay with the annoying people,to be a dumb and look so dumb, nothing nodding my head all the time....haishh...

but...if i choose to be on my dream path, i've to be strong and tough,i've to sacrifice my time with the boys,i've to stay awake, and be energetic to finish up my task as a mother,a wife, and a career woman......

these eyes are tired..sore and red...i need a deep rest,thank you.......

|| Mr Apad Junior II ||

Posted by Mashy a.k.a Mummyrayyan at 2:55 AM 0 comments


its been a year,since the last time i wrote here...ouhh lamenye,kalo umah da bersawang2 da tggal lame cenggitu,siap ade sarang tikus lagi hik hikk...i'm now a mother of two, oh ya ...a few days after my last post i had delivered a beautiful baby boy, weighing 3.45 kg, through cesarean section, again.yes,again.this is my 2nd time, and i had d d same experience ,exactly the same 2 years back, when i delivered rayyan...

i was admitted twice for this 2nd pregnancy...first time was on 13th june 2011,due to the baby's breech positoning,and the doctor decided to undergo the c sect on me the next day, which is 14th june...but miracle happened, and he suddenly turned back to the normal position,which is cephalic, and it did,yes,raise my spirit and hope to deliver him through VBAC--- yerp,its a shortform of normal birth after csect...yeah, to be honest, sejujur2nyeee, of course i put a very high hope for this 2nd pregnancy, to keep up a good health, and maintaing the good eating habit, and for sure to deliver him through normal way..but who am i to say this and that?? Allah knows best, and when He says this,it will not turn out the other way around..and yerp, i have to accept the fact that i can't deliver him throughnormal way..why???let me story mory the morning glory to u okeh?

this 2nd pregnancy really test my patience, it does... he been overdued ...the 'flight'had been delayed for 10 days..and ergghhh...u know how does it feels when u have to wait and wait??? its like waiting is a torture to me!! i'd been warded on the 6th day after due (which is 26th june) and after considering my condition, and the baby's slow progress,the O & G team decided to induced me, this time they didnt use pills induction(like i had when i delivered rayyan bfore)---sakit nak ma****!!!! this time they used 'balloon'---does it sound funny?? ---hello,its not hokey! its not funny at all..and its painful as well..its like u r having a pin in ur ass!!! ouwchh!!! tapi kan, luckily i had been accompanied by my mr right,encik suami yg sentiasa ade di sisi--eceh! i was lucky because, for both sons(alamak,terbgtau lak) encik suami ade dlm labour room...

i was sent to the labour room, after subh prayer..i managed to hd my last prayer(sobs..mcm nak mati rase...yela, mane tau x pjg umur kan...:() a few minutes after i done, i feel a little fluid red liquid running down my limbs...and yeah,i'm bleeding and it was so painful,actually dis contraction since 12am midnite lagi..mmg sakit x hengat..tak dapat tido langsung,pegang2 besi katil lagi..tp nurses suh bertahan sbb blum kuar darah or air ketuban...haiyoohhh...it was 7 am, n one lady doctor came n check my path way, n she said, it's 4, suddenly die called the nurse...óne wheelchair,patient no 8, 4 cm, in labour'' wahhh..akhirnyee.kate ku dlm atii..walaupun sgt2 saket*hingga menggigit jari* tapi hati ni gumbira krn path da bukak, n x lame g bole jumpe my new baby!

i was wheeled to the LR, n a few minutes later my hubby came inside, to calm me down..two lady doctors came n broke the amniotic fluids( n it feels like he**) rase nk sepak je doctor ni! huhuu...they said, byk2 doa n tawakal insyaAllah by 12 bole bukak full...

tick tock tick tock..its near 12 and didnt realised at all..maybe because it was too painful(contraction,no gap in between),even my hubby da habis modal bercerita, siap buat lawak tahap maharaja lawak,tapi x jalan gak..huhu..by 12 sharp, the O n G team came in n checked the
path again...dup dap dup dap..whaaaaattt??? 4 cm lagikk???? nahhh, now i started to feel down, and sad, but hubby was there to cheer me up...:) the doctor then came again by 4 pm, n as expected , it still 4 cm!!! he said, the hope was only 5 % left..only miracle could save me....but maybe it's been written, by 7pm, when it was still 4cm, i was wheeled to the OT (operation theatre) for the cesarean section...deep down inside, i feel so disappointed, but the O n G team at HTJ did a good job! they supported me, cheer me up, n said this is not the end of the world..but bear in mind, i have two more chances only..i will only have four kids, that's final :( but then, still, praises to Allah, at least ade anak kan...:)

uwaaaaa uwaaaaa....by 7.21 pm, Muhammad Rayhan Rizqie was born . he was safely delivered tru c section,and he was so beautiful..i could listened to his voice , crying loudly, maybe it was too cold in the OT...i had an experience before(when i delivered rayyan) so, i didnt have too much anxiety being in the OT..in fact, i feel so relief when the spinal back jab works...all the contraction pains went away...waaahhh....hilang sumee.....after 2 hours, i was sent back the my room and there the pain came...nah, the knife cut you 'feel!! sedap sgguh rasenye,huhu...the untold part about csct is when u lost the numb feel, and it was sooo painful to stand, to sit and to breastfeed ur baby..but luckily, i had experience before, n it was not so hard this time..its all about mind setting..i set my mind to be strong and tough, because i'm a mommy of two now! huhu....

rayhan is now two months and a half now, and my 3 months holiday hv come to the end..back to reality, bye bye boys..no more breakfast with mummy, no more wake up late with the boys, and sleep late at night...sobss....mummy loves both of u, rayyan n rayhan, and their abah too!!!!

Thursday, June 23, 2011

waiting for his arrival...

Posted by Mashy a.k.a Mummyrayyan at 7:57 PM 0 comments
its been a very long time since i updated my blog here..it was about 9 months back..when i was about a few weeks preggy...now i'm still pregnant, yeah, still!!! you must be wondering why right....it is absolutely the same same baby that i carried the last time i posted my blog, yerp, i'm officially in my 40 weeks, and 2 days !! yep, its an overdue pregnancy already...

my oh my...everything has been prepared nicely for this second hero of mine...from diapers to blanket, from mittens and booties, to his comfy cot..everything has been prepared completely...not 100% new, but i guess 80% new...the rest were belong to his abang,rayyan.. :)